WHY?

I know there are times when I question myself. I guess the older I get the more I feel this way. I also know that God has a plan and I must allow that plan to work. I just wish I knew what it was. I guess that sometimes you must just trust and believe. This is the hardest part of the plan. After yesterday's sermon at church I had the feeling things were going to work out and I felt at peace but when I woke this morning I just felt totally destroyed. Today and tomorrow are going to be the hardest part of this week. I just wish this week we could skip. As I sit here at my desk and cry and wish that it was 2 years ago and I could just change the actions of those around me and make things different and let the pain go. I hope that those around me can understand and give the hugs that are needed. I pray for those who have been hurt and cry for those who do not understand. I will never be able to replace the one person they want to see and hug the most. I just hope as a mother I will be able to give them enough hugs to make it a little better. I will have to take a line from Jeremy Camp's song and truely Walk By Faith.