Talk about blasts from the past. You never know who you may run into when you are just looking for people you work with and your friends. I am just wondering how it happens that those around you change but those who you had what some consider a very short conversation stay with you or at least in your mind forever.
Though I may not be able to change my actions or my words from 14 years ago I can say I don't feel the same. For those who don't know what I am talking about that is ok, for those who do I am sorry. Not everything stays the same. We grow up and learn that what we wanted when we were younger and what we thought would make us happy then doesn't seem to be the perfect plan today.
Maybe someday down the road I will be able to let those around me then know how I truly feel about being scared. I am afraid to be that person whose words really don't match the actions they have taken. While I may have been that person my words now mean so much more now than they did then. I love my friends who have stuck by me and there are not that many who have and I will pray for those who don't understand my change of heart and realize that as the changed person I have become in the past 8 years that I to have fallen short but that falling short is the best way to be at times. It helps us learn and become those who will understand that not everyone is perfect. I know another rambling post. But I do have a point I miss my old friends, look to make new friends, and want to be able to find and apologize to those I may have hurt.
I am so very sorry and hope that you can all forgive me and know that I am a different person now.
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