Why does it have to hit home?

There are so many things I can say about what I heard during the service on Sunday to make me realize that the things I go through every week is something God has put on me so I listen and not take anything for granted. I have every reason to have bitterness and anger against those who tell me they love me. And every week I have to remind myself I am not the only one in this position. There are others who have worse things happening to them and around them. But I still want to be mad but that is not what God has in mind for us. The more we allow bitterness and anger to take hold in our lives the further we are away from God. I am the first to admit the anger and resentment I have come from the failed marriages and the failed pregnancies. But God keeps reminding me that others have the same things that have happened to them. I have to look around and say I have 2 wonderful children and I have to give Him thanks for this. The more I think that I have things together and that I can mask how the pain of the past is what is making the future so hard the more it falls apart.
I must remember what I heard during the lessons in church. Bitterness and Anger only make things worse. The more foothold we give them the harder it is to get rid of them. I have been angry a long time from having a child stolen from me because of the anger of a man who thought it would be better to harm me, from having a man break into my home and attempt to rape me, to having a painful divorce where pain is the only thing he wanted to cause. I must remember very key verses in my way back from bitterness and anger. Here is just a little taste of what I try to remember on a daily basis. Although it is hard to remember these things I must do my best. I must be the bigger person and the one to know that I am not the one to pass judgement and I must let God work in his own way. All in due time God will reveal himself.

Ephesians 4:31-32
31Get rid of all bitterness, rage and anger, brawling and slander, along with every form of malice. 32Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.

Mark 11:25
25And when you stand praying, if you hold anything against anyone, forgive him, so that your Father in heaven may forgive you your sins."

Ephesians 4:26
26"In your anger do not sin": Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry

Colossians 3:13
13Bear with each other and forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you.

Hebrews 12:15
15See to it that no one misses the grace of God and that no bitter root grows up to cause trouble and defile many.

Acts 8:22-23
22Repent of this wickedness and pray to the Lord. Perhaps he will forgive you for having such a thought in your heart. 23For I see that you are full of bitterness and captive to sin."

Proverbs 10:12
12 Hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers over all wrongs.

Job 5:2
2 Resentment kills a fool, and envy slays the simple.